A while back, I was asked, “so what exactly do you do?” It was then followed with, “I see skating and yoga, but not quite sure on how it all ties in.”
The long and short of it is that I’ve wanted to share my experiences to inspire people, and I write, manage groups, advise, teach and work with people to help them reach their goals.
My personal formula has been yoga, skating, praying, meditating, attending fellowship meetings, choosing to stay positive by focusing on the good going on around me and surrounding myself with positive and successful people.
Skating has been an amazing go-to workout for me. I’ve done all different kinds of cardiovascular exercises, and group fitness classes had been a personal favorite for a while until I started the Skate Every Damn Day group and the challenges. Now, I’m compelled to skate daily, whether it’s around the house or to get in some cardio for the day. Of all the cardio I’ve done, truly skating has been my favorite. It’s the only thing I’ve been doing happily for two years now <3
Saturday I take on the Jacksonville Baldwin Rail Trail, a beast that gets me about 30 miles of skating in for the day. Last time I did it, I hit my goal of skating it in just under 3 hours. When I go out on Saturday, I don’t have a goal, other than completing the skate. There are a few of us going out and I have no expectations, and it will be lovely for us to stay together so I’m hoping for the best 🙂 I know *I* can do it, I’ve done it twice by myself and that first time was SO rough, so no matter what, I know I’m capable 🙂
As far as yoga goes, I got into the practice because of roller derby. My coach at the time told me I needed to relax, and he said, “do some fucking yoga” to encourage me to go. The first few classes were a breeze and when I started taking hot yoga in a studio, I was SCHOOLED. I fell in love with it and early on, I figured I’d be a pretty good yoga instructor. Serendipity once again did its magic, and I attended a 200-hour program and finished.
Practicing yoga has saved my life (I mean that in a very literal sense) and teaching it has transformed my life. There’s no way on God’s green earth that a basketcase like me can lead a class successfully unless we have our shit together, so I make it a point to get grounded, meditate, and give my students a practice that they want, need, and request in voice and with their bodies.
Yoga is the first educational experience that has already paid for itself; I’ve earned more teaching yoga than I paid for the training in less than a year. It’s also reaped amazing spiritual benefits for me, and there’s no price tag on that; the value is immeasurable and priceless.
Praying has been a part of my life since I was about three years old, and I incorporated meditation about 7 years ago. Meditation in the past had been an option, and now it’s a daily habit. I need to do it to keep my shit together. It’s a way for my heart to speak, instead of allow my ego to scream. It’s still a practice and I still struggle with stillness, and the moments I get it are timeless. It happens every time I practice and teach, no matter how fleeting the moments.
Staying positive and being around good influences are an integral part of keeping me together. I’ve had to do a LOT of filtering in my social circles and I will continue to. It’s made my circle a lot smaller and that’s been a great thing for my attention span and my choices. It’s been challenging and a huge revelation, and I understand more about human motivation and behavior as a whole.
We’re all a bit crazy, some more than others. We’re all a bit full of shit, some more than others. We all have our struggles, and I hang around people who have plans to rise above the shit life throws at us. I choose victors, not victims. In the past, I felt like I needed to save people, to help everyone, to continue to give to people. Now I understand that help is for those that seek it, I don’t have to save anyone. I have to work on myself, and I want to be around people that will help me get to where I want to be. That choice, to allow myself to get help instead of solve everyone else’s problems, has been HUGELY instrumental in my well-being and especially for my sobriety.
Life’s never perfect, and I do my best to keep my head up, to act with honor and integrity, and to keep the asshole at bay. I am, after all, a recovering asshole (I really am…I mean I’m a good person but I still get upset, impatient and blurt things out), and I’ll always be a work in progress.
Having these loves in my life make me bearable, lovable, and help me accept myself exactly as I am, for who I am.
This year truly tested me, and I’m thankful for every blessing and lesson. Soon I’ll do a recap for the year, and in the meantime, I’m allowing myself a moment to bask in everything I’ve survived and in all the ways I’ve thrived <3