Reason #37 – So I can go skydiving!
Recorded on June 11, 2013
Weight: 185 pounds
At the start of this video, I talk about my Happy Thoughts jar for the year – I started a habit of putting a happy thought into a container, and the objective is to open it and read the happy thoughts on New Year’s Eve. I started doing this on New Year’s day of 2013 and now I have a jar for 2013, 2014 and 2015. Whenever I remember to do it, I’ll place a happy thought and the date it happened, and it’s a lovely way to remember how it’s the little things that matter the most 🙂
It’s a great way to keep perspective, because in the end, it’s really the little things that make us happy, and those are what count! It’s all about being happy, grateful, and staying present <3
Being present and surrendering is a huge part of letting go of the ego’s desires and listening with the heart. For the longest time, I let me ego control me, always comparing myself to what I thought I should be, who I was when things were going well in a different aspect of my life, and so on. It takes guts to completely let go and surrender – and that doesn’t mean to just stop caring, it means to stop caring about how things will turn out and just surrender to the trust that they will work out.
Surrender is a huge part of skydiving!
I have wanted to go skydiving for as long as I have had conscious memory. It’s been in my mind ever since I’ve seen airplanes, and without even knowing that could be done, I wanted to do it.
The first time I ever went to go do it, I was over the weight limit. Pissed about being rejected and angry at myself for not losing enough weight to do it, of course I did what any addict does – fell right back into my addiction and let it feed off of me. I ate, and ate, and ate, to fill that void.
Once I was finally ready, and it took a bunch of times to do it and it is STILL a daily struggle, I finally committed to it and followed through.
I went skydiving! FINALLY!
It was unlike anything I could have imagined, and the thrill of completely surrendering and relinquishing control was fantastic, and thankfully, over pretty quickly 🙂 Skydiving stripped away any fear and doubt, and I figured if I was to go, what better way than by witnessing God’s earth, coming right at me at over 120 miles an hour?
There was this moment right before my tandem person pulled the ripcord, where we got super narrow and feel deeper and more quickly right before the chute opened, and then everything was in slow motion.
My poor tandem guy, he hadn’t met a woman like me before 🙂 Often with first-timers, there’s a thrill and trust that happens that creates a Stockholm Syndrome-type connection with the instructor, but that shit doesn’t work on me! He kept making comments about being my boyfriend and I had to keep him in line by explaining that I’m a lesbian and it doesn’t work that way. I also kept telling him about a woman I was interested in, and…well that probably made it worse 😛
However, I had the experience and it will be with me for the rest of my life, and as soon as we hit the ground, I was ready to do it all over again 🙂
Like so many things in life, there was SO much anticipation leading up to it, the event itself was so short-lived yet thrilling and TOTALLY worth the work and time to earn it, and then all that’s left after are the memories. Ahhhh 🙂
What a thrill <3
I was also super stoked to get back on skates, and I even mention that roller derby and skydiving were both freakishly scary, but I was excited to give it a shot and let it happen.
I have no regrets whatsoever about both experiences 🙂
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– Karen Petersen/Smash Tank